And then fast-forward to the next wooby-moment. Seriously? Seriously?! An almost-omnipotent Cas looking for a Dean in dimension after dimension? For year after year after year? That`s just... I can`t even. It`s either the sleep-deprivation or I`m growing too sentimental or hormonal or something, but I`m freaking crying. I cry over fanfiction like 1 time out of 20 angst stories and it`s usually just extra wetness in my eyes. Not actual tears down my face. Which it is now. Well, which it was 30 minutes ago, I`ve calmed down somewhat. Mostly by not thinking about it too much. And Cas losing faith in God (it would totally take losing the boys) but not in Dean and that she`ll find him? And she seemed like a new character (what with being a girl and speaking differently) and it hurt to see her suffer. But then I tried actually picturing Cas as her and - hello, tears, long time no see. I`d never been intimidated by the concept of eternity until I started finding stories with Cas living forever after Dean. It is so freaking lonely! You have that one twitfic that I can`t get out of my head. There, it`s September 19th and Cas is lonely because it`s an anniversary for him and he has a daughter and a grandson? You are evil. Just. I can`t.
So. Yes. I hope I can go to sleep now or something. Except I`m totally not sleepy anymore and I just want to rage and shout and babble on and on about how Destiel is canon and the bestest thing ever and about the love-hate relationship I have with fics that take a hold of me and won`t. let. go. And oh my god, letting go is so overrated. Caaaas!...
Why, why???
So, this has been an enjoyable venture. And I`m sure I love you right now deep deep down, underneath all that grumpiness and wtf`s. Just. I`m gonna ignore some of your alternative realities and substitute them with porn, okay? Thank you.
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Date: 2012-03-29 01:03 am (UTC)So. Yes. I hope I can go to sleep now or something. Except I`m totally not sleepy anymore and I just want to rage and shout and babble on and on about how Destiel is canon and the bestest thing ever and about the love-hate relationship I have with fics that take a hold of me and won`t. let. go. And oh my god, letting go is so overrated. Caaaas!...
Why, why???
So, this has been an enjoyable venture. And I`m sure I love you right now deep deep down, underneath all that grumpiness and wtf`s. Just. I`m gonna ignore some of your alternative realities and substitute them with porn, okay? Thank you.